"I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt... but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run.."
-Unknown-
May 21, 2011
May 19, 2011
Someone who means so much to me (dedicated to my SUPERmom!)
Actually, it was my Introduction to Literature's final ASSignment when i was in the fifth semester in English Department.
Enjoy!
:)
When she felt tired being pregnant of me, she cried. It was 20 years ago.
When she felt labor pains to, she cried. I was born with all of her pains. I was cried for sure, but it was unequal condition. I cried for nothing, mother cried with relief.
When she felt relief that I was born well in this world, she cried. Everyone was happy, I cried.
When I started to talk, walked, and mischievous, she cried. Totally cried.
When I started to school and felt from my vehicle, she cried. Neither am I. But she felt that she can’t protect me. Blaming at herself.
When I was teenager and striving with her, she cried. I was feeling laden with sins. I am a moron who makes her cry.
When I studied out of town, she cried. I promised to make her proud. Leaving her, pretending that I’m ok. But my heart can’t lie. It cried so loud, made two tears line below my eyes.
When she missed me, she cried.
When I came back, she cried.
With every moment in my life, my mother always cry.
Whether it’s right or wrong, it’s happy or sad crying. Mother, your love had been chiseled immortally in my heart’s wall, warming me up in every second I breathe.
Love you more than you do, SUPERmom.
i'm not going to be lie, honestly.
Jangan pernah ceritakan padaku,
betapa indahnya matahari ketika ia terbit dan terbenam
betapa menyenangkannya melihat sekawanan burung camar pulang ke sarangnya dikala senja
betapa nyamannya melihat awan cerah dengan berbaring di rerumputan hijau atas bukit
betapa damainya mendengar suara ombak memecah karang di pinggir pantai
betapa harumnya wangi tanah basah setelah hujan
betapa merdunya melodi rintik air dikala gerimis kita hadang
betapa hangatnya sinar mentari kala kita bermain di taman pagi hari
betapa lucunya melihat sekelompok anak kecil bermain petak umpet di lorong perumahan
betapa membahagiakannya itu semua.
Hingga aku tak sanggup untuk berucap sepatah kata.
Jangan, jangan pernah lagi mulutmu membuka, menggelintirkan bermacam kata hanya untuk mendongengkan narasi tentang kebahagiaan.
Tak perlu.
Tak perlu kau carikan dimana kebahagiaanku.
Tak perlu kau ocehkan hal-hal indah, namun semu.
Semua orang mungkin tahu itu.
Hanya satu yang mereka tak tahu, tak perlu tahu.
Mungkin juga kau tidak.
Bahwa kebahagiaanku, adalah DIRIMU.
Rawamangun, 08 th May 2011.
03.42 p.m
-Ms-
-Ms-